I have to admit, I’ve had my moments.
Don’t get me wrong, I love God. He is the reason for my being, and I believe every word in the Bible without hesitation. But there have been times when I’ve wondered if He’s dropped the ball.
I haven’t had an easy few years. In fact, they’ve been horrible, but I’ve always managed to stay strong in my faith because I trust that He knows what He’s doing and everything will work out as it should. But a few weeks ago, things came to a head and I suffered a major blow.
I realize what I should have done was instantly fall to my knees and go to the One who loves me with an infinite love. But that’s not what I did.
I threw a hissy fit. An epic fit. Right in my backyard in front of my neighbors. For everyone to see.
As I regrouped and began to think about my reaction, I was stunned. Why would I, who truly loves God, question Him and rant and rave when I didn’t get my way?
And if I reacted like that, how in the world are unbelievers supposed to trust Him when things don’t go their way?
And then I realized the answer. When we trust people in this life, it’s because we know them. The more we get to know someone, the stronger our trust (or distrust) grows. And it’s the same with God. When we truly know Him for who He is—His character, His intentions, and His promises—there is no way we can question Him. He’s just too wonderful.
It made me think back to a few years ago when I was going through some very hard times, but felt Him right there beside me. During that time, I came across a verse from Job that really stood out to me. “I had heard of you by the hearing of the ear, but now my eyes see you.” Job 42:5
That’s faith, people. We can hear about Him all day long, but it’s not until we “see” Him that we really come to know and trust him.
So, if I know God so well, why did I throw a fit when things went wrong? I don’t know the answer to that, but I do know this: It was a sign to me that I need to dig in deeper with Him and figure it out. Read more of His Word, spend more time in prayer, and ask Him to show me the error of my thinking.
Because trusting Him is the safest and best thing we can do.
What about you? Have you ever thrown a fit and questioned God when He didn’t do things your way? What was the result? Did it bring you closer to Him?